| so...today I'm feeling emo.......actaully this was a comment on someone elses emo blog, so I've taken some stuff out, and it still sounds weird because I origionally typed it to someone, but heres what's left.
i totally know how you feel....well, except for the whole love thing. But i really get it. Like, in school you act all happy, and you kind of feel happy, but not really. You just kinda go along with it all. You go home and realize that is all just an act. That you dont really act that way. You're not happy. And life is just made up of secrets that you wish can, never will tell. And then when you're alone, you understand everything. You kinda open up to yourself. You understand why some people cut, you get it how people are just so alone and depressed that they kill themselves. And you wish that your could stop putting on the mask, and just be yourself....but it's always harder than you think. And really, I think that the emo kids, aren't really the emo kids. We're the emo kids. I think we're the people...we bottle it up, and don't tell anyone until it's too late. And that's why when someone kills thamselves, no one ever thought it would be them, because they always put on that fake smile. Maybe were not supposed to show our true emotions. Because, if we showed them, it would only lead to future criticism...so I'm really starting to think that...the outer emo layer on some people is fake, just like our outer layer of fake happiness. If you go and tell everyone that you cut or do drugs or something like that, your just doing it to please the crowd. And not for you, even though you probably shouldn't be doing it. But that is beside the point. I mean, if you have to share your deep dark emotions to the whole world and everyone in it, it's all just a front.
Yeah, I remember that days too.......when you never cried yourself to sleep, and never having almost ever waking thought be about suicide, or something similar. Even now as i typed this, i thought of how great a suicide note this would be. *sigh* Now, I kinda feel like your one of the few who really gets it. As i was reading this, i really felt if I typed all my emotions out (much like im doing right now) that it would be exactly the same. I've never really felt as if someone else would understand me. Until now. Thanks.
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okay. Cillian Murphy is playing a crossdresser in his next movie. God. Damn. him. and condemn him to Hell. A man that sexy is not allowed to dress like a woman. *cries* no.........He just.........cant. *bursts into tears* and im sad to say, when i found out i did kinda cry......a little..... Not my celebrity one true love. no....... and for those of you who dont know who the hell he is (shame on you) he is the man screaming on the background of my site. And he is The Scarecrow. *drool* yeah, he's hot. And I finally am OVER Aaron. No, Charlotte, NOT criswell....no........certainly not. *ick* This guy at school.yay, I feel good. mainly because i found out he was a senior. hmph...i thought he was a sophomore. Shows how much I know. :) But now I have found a new guy to stalk. ha. I find enjoyment in that. :) Meghan, only one who knows his name, this information shall NOT be given out. I repeat, shall NOT!!!!! People here know him...*shifty eyes*
*shiver*
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